A Little Fire Last Night

I met up with a extremely long time ex-boyfriend of mine last night around my neighbourhood as he was around my area for a run. We were once intimately close about 8 years ago however went separate ways shortly, the very last time we met was about 4 years ago. When he call me up, I was making all kinds of speculations in my head, thinking why the sudden meet up.

We went straight to quiet dinner near my place as he was starving after his run, we sat down and started to catch up with what happened since we last met up. I'll like to get straight to the point here, he told me he's getting married next month with a lady he's with for the past 2 years. I was sincerely happy to hear this news. He finally found someone who can captivate his heart, that he is willing to settle down with for the rest of his life. This was something I never believe he is capable of doing from the person I knew he was. Overall, I just felt very relief for him.

After dinner, he suggested to take a walk around to reminisce our old times, the playground that we will always sit after he sent me home, before I head back. I took it as a harmless suggestion. Thus we sat down at the playground and bit by bit I realise something's not right. First of all, he asked for a hug (which is normal since that was our normal practice even after we broke up), I gave him a big friendly hug with my very best wishes to a happy marriage. The next second, he slided his hands down my back and rested on my precious butt (and a little squeeze for a grand finale). I pulled back and asked with genuine concern if "everything" is all right. He assured me that he is happy with who he is marrying. Alright...

He sat closer and closer to me, eventually had his arms around me, told me I lost weight. Alright...

Then he started to caress my leg. Alright! That's it!

"Some things never change." I looked away at the moonlit sky and told him that he should prepare himself to accept the fact that he is getting married, that he should not carry on living life as if he's still single. I was thinking in my little morbid mind "If required, I will gladly bash the fact into that thick skull of yours with my sharpest stilettos heel"...

He then told he his view of marriage. Seems like he thinks it's ok as long a you know who you really love in your heart, it is completely all right to play with "fire" once in a while to "spice" things up. Most importantly, his soon-to-be-wife should never find out. It's just no-strings-attached, harmless fun.

I don't understand how can he still make the same mistake over and over again when I saw he fell from grace once before, after he found out that the girl he loved left him for another guy. He was devastated, so the more he should know how it feels to be betrayed. I told him to think over seriously why does he want to get married and that if he's looking for "fire"... yes, I'm definitely of "fire" caliber, but I'm not interested to complicate my life. I was just disappointed with his choice.

We continued to chatted for a short while and wrapped up the session. I saw him off, he said I should call him when I'm free or at least before I get married so he can personally give me a "memorable private hen's night" (actually, he phrased the above using direct, crude words but I was too "Zen" to react). Sigh...

I told him maybe he should consider making that his profession since he is still attractive and I quickly followed up telling him I have a few friends getting married soon, in their early 40s, looking for such services. He frowned and before he could retaliate, I told him it's all about professionalism... I was hoping he could get my sarcasm but he obviously failed badly.

He left. I shook my head. Whoever is the wife of his, I feel worried and sad for you. Please be strong if he really let you down, which I think he will at the rate he's going, unless some miracle happens on your wedding night I'm just super glad that I'm out of the disastrous picture since 8 years ago.

My NYX Lip Gloss Collection!

I own a total of ten of them out of NYX's huge collection of Megashine Lip Gloss and they are (until this point of time) the best drugstore lip gloss that I've came across. I did not realise I've got so many until I took them out to do this swatch entry, but I'm still glad I've got them all. There are times that I may venture out with minimal eye make up (just concealer set with loose powder and generously applied mascara), to add some flush of color to my "empty canvas", these lip glosses come in just in place.

They are extremely high-shine and affordable (15ml). Those that are suppose to be pigmented are nicely pigmented, and they are not sticky compared to other more costly lip glosses in my collection. Therefore I don't see why I should not get more when the time comes.

Nope, I did not purchase them in Singapore as the range of products available at the shelves in Guardian's pathetic and prices are marked up exorbitantly. I did not purchase them all at one go, but through multiple online hauls I've done through a personal contact who is setting up her web-shop, at a lovely price. I'll make her shop opening blog entry here when it's up and running, so keep a look out!

My Collection of NYX Megashine Lip Glosses

All swatches are done with the doe-foot applicator that comes with the tube (nothing too special) and swapped only once on the back of my (NC25 to NC30 MAC color scheme) hand.

First five of the NYX Megashine Lip Glosses (all photos in my blog can be enlarged for details, just click on them)

1: Sweet Heart (Nude-beige pink with extremely fine silver glitter, pigmented)

2: Lollipop (Nude-beige tangerine with fine shimmer, pigmented)

3: French Kiss (Soft warm pink with fine shimmer, pigmented)

4: Natural (Warm beige-nude)

5: Miami Babe (Mauve-rosy nude)

Swatch taken indoor without flash

Another swatch taken for your reference

Swatch taken against sunlight to show the glossiness

Last five of the NYX Megashine Lip Glosses

6: Copper Penny (Rose burgundy with shimmer, quite pigmented but do note this color feathers so do line your lips)

7: Baby Rose (Clear with lots of fine shimmer, can be layered over other lip products for shine and dimension)

8: Chandelier (Clear cool pink with lots of shimmer and extremely fine glitter, can be layered over other lip products too)

9: Smokey Look (Light beige-nude with a little extremely fine silver glitter)

10: Tea Rose (Healthy cool tone rose pink)

Swatch taken indoor without flash

Another swatch taken for your reference

The pigmented ones can be sheered out to give wash of color or applied as per normal to give a lovely pop of color and glossiness. However as you can see from my collection, I personally prefer muted tones. They do come with a strong sweet cherry scent which some complained of, I fine with it as the scent wears off after application (or is it that my nose grew "immune" to that particular scent...) Oh well! They are comfortable to wear, not drying to my lips, last for a good four to five hours (with only light eating and drinking) for my lippy. Overall, I love them all!

NYX Megashine Lip gloss in Chandelier

I Cried On My Final Day...

I know it's already 3 weeks after I left the previous office, that it's a little late to put this entry now. However I still want to have this done as it marks a period of my life that I will never forgot.

I have met and bonded with so many wonderful people in the ANZ office and somehow I know I will never get to come across such a bunch of impressively heartwarming people in my work life. That's the reason why it was so hard for me to make the decision to go. Ironically, it was with the support for these people who encouraged me to make the move to a better pasture.

I did and it was only natural for me to bawl my eyes out when it was time to leave.

I confess, I cried really hard when I was writing the individual farewell emails. I did not want to send one general email for all as I felt each and everyone of them were special to me, but the memories came flooding back as I typed. I really cried. I've heard I did make a few colleagues feel a little "squeeze" in their hearts or even cried after reading my farewell to them. Lol, I'm sorry... 

The most surprising part was that I received a cake as a little token from the BM team. I was not expecting anyone to notice my departure and I was not particularly close to the BM team, thus their kind action really... well, I sheded tears of appreciation. Thank you so very much.

I woke up on the following Monday not having to head to work as I was clearing my leave. However, my heart was still with them, thinking of "how's the volume today and how are they coping". Even when I've started my new career, I will still note the important dates, especially the 7th, and felt my heart beat accelerate a bit knowing they will be fighting the "war" soon.

The separation was inevitable, however I'm glad I've opened my online-interacting account so that I can keep in touch with each and everyone of them. I strongly believe, true friends will always be no matter what's the distance between. I willl find time to visit after I'm settled because I do miss them...